A real beginning of Happy Days

Ahh! Its was an awesome month of August. I still cant believe that everything happened very fast. It was a magical journey. It all started in month of July when i received an email from HR of IndiGo Airlines asking to send documents for written exam at New Delhi for the post of Junior first officer. That was an unexpected invitation. I had no hopes from IndiGo Airlines to conduct exam for A320 type rated pilots. But it happened. Happened for a good reason.

I studied hard for this exam. I did not want to repeat the same mistake i did while studying for GoAir exam. Though i cleared GoAir exam, i was not having enough confidence while undergoing interview. IndiGo written exam was scheduled on 23rd July and i decided to fly to delhi a night before. By midnight of 23rd I landed at New Delhi and decided to spend a night at T3. After studying till 4am i fell asleep at the airport waiting lounge. It was not at all comfortable to rest on those metal benches. But somehow i managed. By 7’o clock i got up, changed cloths and headed towards exam centre. I decided not to cheat in this exam. I did not ask for help from any fellow candidates. I just wanted to be honest with myself. I knew i have taken a lot of efforts while preparing for this. Exam was good.

After two days, i got a notification of email on my iPad. It was a result of written test. I successfully cleared it. I jumped with a joy. It was the happiest moment of the month. I thanked myself for this awesome gift.

During next 20 days, i underwent next three stages of selection process. Written test was followed by CASS (psychometry test), Technical & HR interview and Simulator check. By 17th August, i had cleared all four stages and now waiting for an official joining letter from IndiGo Airlines. I am sure i will be receiving it very soon.

This period of July-August was a life changing period for me. I never thought life would give me so many surprises. In this period i had cleared graduation exams, RTR license renewal, i cleared all stages of IndiGo Airlines. And one more special incident occurred in this period. I called McDonalds at Secunderabad where i met Divya ‘ A girl with golden smile’. I found McD’s phone number from online directory, i inquired about her, someone told me she had left the job few months ago. I requested to relay my message to her. Message was “Call me”.

After one and half hour, i got a call from her. She was very happy that i remembered her and could not believe we were talking. I was in tears of happiness after we talked. I never thought i would be able to contact her. She was equally missing me like i did. She tried to find me everywhere on facebook/google plus/other social media. She said she always had faith that someday we will meet. Its a small world. It was ‘Friendship day’ when i found her. This was the best friendship day ever in my life.

Back in 2012 at McDonalds, we used to look at each other and smile. We did not talked much. Like in hindi they say आंखो हि आंखो मे बाते. Her smile made me forget every sorrow in my life. I have always seen her in McD uniform. All the time she wore a cap during her working shift. Now after two years when she showed me her photo, i was stunned. She is a really beautiful girl. I seriously did not expect her to be so beautiful. Actually at McD i never noticed anything except her smile and beautiful eyes. It was a beautiful shock for me.

I like her and i know she likes me too. But there is always a perfect time for every thing. I am not forcing myself to fall for her nor i don’t want her to do same at this moment. She believes in destiny. If its written, it will happen. I believe same.

She is very lucky for me. I found her and within two weeks time, i did clear all stages at IndiGo Airlines. I do want to stay lucky forever with she next to me.

I never thought life will bring me bundle of happiness after a very tough time. Few months ago I was a broken man with lots of depression. But i kept on believing in myself. I knew it was a temporary sorrow. Life will be awesome very soon. Then i took 100happydays challenge. It really changed my life. And made me extremely positive person. Now i am stronger than ever and aiming high in my life. I want life to surprise me with lots of joy and happiness. Its a real beginning of happy days.

My previous posts about ‘A girl with golden smile’Part 1, Part 2

My post previous about 100happydays – What I learnt in #100HappyDays?

Good things will happen to me

One saddest thing about being innocent and honest is people take me for granted and try to cheat. I may be smiling but it hurts from inside when someone who is very close to me, tries to do so.

Past couple of months were full of heart breaks and disappointments.

  • I did not clear GoAir interview,
  • I failed in Financial Management exam (for final year of management studies),
  • My ex girlfriend found a new guy (who is no way better than me :p),
  • I had fight with my best friend on Goa trip,
  • I started liking a girl but later found that she was cheating on me (now she is entertaining a new guy. Even he is no way better than me),
  • My family is going through financial crisis

Start for 2014 was eventful. On 6th Jan i was called for interview at GoAir (that was the only awesome thing happened in 2014 for me till date). I studied my ass off for it and gave my best. But i could not impress interviewers to get hired. Getting rejected at airline interview was a biggest disappointment for me.

I could not recover from that shock and in same week i came to know that my ex girlfriend has found a new boyfriend. I have lot of memories with her (my laptop is full of our memories). Suddenly all those memories filled my brain and made me sad. I don’t blame her for what has happened. In fact i am happy for her that someone is taking her good care and keeping her happy. But memories of first hug, first kiss, first rain together, first love will always be stored within my heart.

In that same week, university of Mumbai declared results for final year of management studies (semester 5). Though i topped in two papers, i failed in Financial Management. I suddenly went in to depression. I really wanted to run away from this world and forget all shit has happened to me. Later i planned a Goa trip with my friend. I did not have money to spend so he sponsored my trip along with him. I really had a good time at Goa. But i was not able to forget what had happened with me in last few weeks. I never had stability of mind on that whole Goa trip. I was sad. I wanted to express my sorrowful thoughts to my friend but he was in his own world. I hardly had time to speak my heart out.

Meanwhile since last few months i had become good friend with a girl who stays nearby. We became very close. We used to go for movies, we used to workout together, she said she liked me a lot. I liked her too but i never told her my feelings because memories of my first love was still in my heart. I will never be able to replace my feeling of first love. I was waiting for time to pass so that i could forget old memories and to start developing feeling for this this girl. She cared for me very much. I always felt that this girl is always with me and will support me in every situation. I started having blind faith on her. But since January i noticed one drastic change in her. She had joined aerobics and we were no more working out together. January was a month full of disappointments. i wanted her to stand by me, but she started avoiding me. She kept giving me reasons for everything. Since she was not showing care, i was again dishearten. Suddenly everything changed against me. To recover from this, i had a trip to Goa. But it did not work.

February was eventful month too. My ex called me for help. She had an interview at Jet Airways. She wanted me to teach her few things. Initially i refused to help but later i got ready for it. It was not easy for me to see her again and accepting that she is someone else’s love. When we met i pretended i am alright and happy for her. But i was crying from inside. Later she cleared interview and simulator tests and soon she will be joining Jet Airways.

During that time i wanted my girl (who i liked) to be with me and support me. But she rarely had time for me. When we meet she used to talk about aerobics and a guy who workouts with her. I used to feel dishearten. It added to my stress. I just wanted her to listen to me and be with me but she never gave me that time to hear my heart out. I asked her to spend Valentines days evening with me but she refused it by saying she has aerobics classes and she cant miss those. I did not say anything.

A day after valentines day, i wanted to meet her. She said she will be in library till evening. I desperately wanted to see her because it was raining and weather was very romantic. I drove to her library and planned to wait till evening to see her lovely smile. But then i saw her leaving library in afternoon. She got into car. I wanted to give her surprise but she drove her car away before she could see me coming. I followed her but i could not overtake her due to traffic. After few minutes she stopped her car. I thought to walk towards her and say hi! As i was getting out of my car, i saw one guy entering her car. I was shocked. He was that same guy in her aerobics classes.

She started driving and i followed her. I called her few times while driving but she did not respond despite seeing me on call. She did not notice i was following her. I wanted to know where she was going. She told me she will be in library but in real she was with this person. She drove her car towards movie theater. As she parked her car, i got out and went to her. She was shocked to see me. I did not expect this from her. She cheated on me. I was helpless and cursed my destiny.

On the way back, i was crying in my car. I was a completely helpless soul.

I wish i never had feelings for her. These days i see her driving along with same guy. When i see them together, i die every time. She liked me a lot and said i was very special for her. But i never thought it was a lie.

I always wanted to recover from depression but these series of events made me weak and sad. Its been almost a month, i am recovering from it. Its not easy but i can see improvement within.

In last few months i experienced series of rejections in each and every event. I wrote diary whenever i used to feel low. I kept watching inspiring videos on YouTube. I never stopped working out in gym. I challenge myself in gym and train hard.

be honest anyway

This though period is still not over. But i am sure it will pass by and very soon i will be a strong person. I have promised myself that i will never think of revenge. I will keep doing my karma. Good things will happen to me.