What has changed is ‘Me’

Its been 4 months since I have been working at IndiGo. Life has changed a lot since then. Before joining IndiGo I was studying at Mumbai university. I used to travel to university by local train and followed by bus. I never liked my daily routine. But I had no other alternative. I still remember how tired I used to feel while traveling during those peak hours. From Nerul to Kurla station in local train and then to Mumbai university by BEST bus. After finishing lectures, I used to stand at bus stop during rush hours. Life was very hectic.

But now after 4 months, everything has changed. To operate flights, I travel to airport on same road which passes close to Mumbai University. It’s a road on which i have spent my past three years of college life. Earlier I used to travel by BEST bus and now I travel in sedan car with chauffeur on board. Whenever I pass by university gate, I get emotional. Few months ago i was here, lost and tired. But I had hopes. And now I am living my life which i had dreamed of. Its a same road, it has same potholes, buses are same, bus stands are same, rush of passengers is same. World has remained same as it was. But what has changed is me.

When i was jobless, I used to visit a Jari mari. This place is very close to runway 27 of Mumbai airport. I used to sit there for hours just watch aircrafts taking off and land. But now when I operate a flight from Mumbai, I see Jari Mari from my cockpit window. I have an emotional attachment with that place. Few months ago, I used to sit there and dream about sitting in cockpit. And now i am living a dream life. Aircrafts are same, airport is same, runway is same, Jari mari is same. But what has changed is me.

I often operate Goa flights. I really enjoy flying over goa. Specially while landing on runway 08 of Goa. For this approach, aircraft flies over sea and lands on runway which is few hundred meters away from water. I still remember that time in january 2014, I was in deep trouble. I had failed in university exam, had suffered a heart break and had few financial issues. It was a very tough time. So, to make myself relax, I planned Goa trip with Deepak. I had no money back then so Deepak financed it. When in Goa, I visited Baga beach, Aguada fort, Chapora fort and other places. I remember the evening which we spent at Chapora fort. Me and deepak were lying on defensive wall of Chapora fort. On his phone, Deepak played hallelujah song by Jeff Buckley. As sun went down the sea, i went emotional. I felt was very helpless and lost. I closed my eyes and concentrated on lyric. After few minutes, calm breeze, shining stars and music made me relax. After few moments, I opened my eyes and right there in open dark sky I saw one aircraft was flying over beautiful skies of Goa. That aircraft flew west to east right over my head. I was lying there and was dreaming myself in that aircraft. Music, sound of waves, stars and aircraft gave me courage to believe in myself. Those 20 minutes spent there made me strong enough to fight against odd.

Last week when I flew out of Goa, I gave a quick glance at beach. There I could see Aguada fort, Baga beach and Chapora fort. And suddenly series of memories had flashed in my mind. I have achieved my dream of being in airplane which flew over Goa. It was same Goa, beach was same, Chapora fort was same. But what has changed is me.

I always knew I deserve better place  in life. Since last one year, the whole world has remained same. But what has changed is me. Time does not stop but it changes for sure. It changed for me because I had a dream and only thing I did was – I protected my dream.

Be a dreamer. Life has awesome surprises ahead.

Being myself on birthday

Its been three months we are in year 2014 and for the first time i felt nice and happy. I have taken #100happydays challenge on Instagram where i upload a photograph of happiest moment of the day. It surprisingly helped me to stay happy and not to think about things which makes me sad.
My birthday was 21st day on #100happydays list. I wanted my birthday to be the most beautiful birthday ever. So first thing i decided is not to expect any gifts, wishes and visits from friends and family. Half of the problems are solved when we don’t expect anything in return.

My birthdays in 2011 and 2012 were not so awesome due to various reasons. On my last birthday in 2013 i was at hostel room in Hyderabad. All my friends visited me at 12am. There was no electricity. I cut cake in bright focus of mobile phone flashlights. I was taken to dark common room for birthday bumps. That was best birthday till 2013. So i wanted this birthday to be better than previous.

Snickers in morning

Before birthday midnight i was reading Bhagavad- Gītā. Reading Bhagavad- Gītā keeps me positive and motivated. It was 12 am and i was about to finish Chapter 1. I slept thinking about Arjuna’s thoughts about Mahabharata.
After very long time i had a deep sleep. When i woke up, i saw mummy coming close and she wished me with my favourite ‘Snickers’ chocolate. I hugged her and could not stop smile.

I got ready to attend lecture at Mumbai University. When i reached, everyone was happy to see me. All my friends hugged and wished me. After lecture we all friends had lots of fun while making paper-planes and rockets. I could see smiles everywhere.

Queen

After lecture i went to library and stayed there till noon. As i decided not to expect anything from anyone, i went to watch a film. I got in to auto rikshaw and headed towards Phoenix Market City. I booked a ticket for ‘Queen’ movie. I loved it. After long tome i watched a movie alone. Last time i watched a movie alone was Namastey London. Kangana Ranaut is awesome in this movie. Queen made my day.

View from Jari Mari

After movie i went to Subway and ordered My favourite 6 inches long Chicken Ham sub. With take away sub I headed towards Jari Mari. By then i was 5 pm. From Jari Mari one can have view of whole Mumbai Airport. Jari Mari is one of my favourite places in Mumbai. I saw aircrafts landing and taking off. Nothing is magnificent than looking at aircrafts touching down on runway and that white smoke due to friction between aircraft tire and runway.

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After Jari Mari i travelled to Marine Drives. I wanted to see birthday sunset at Marine Drives. I always wanted to spend my birthday there. This year i made it possible. As i reached there, sun was just few degrees from horizon. I kept looking at that beautiful scene. I was very happy to be there. While sitting there, i did not miss anyone. I was feeling pure and happy. I did not think of those who left me, who cheated on me or those things which made me unhappy. I kept all negativity out of my brain.

Shev Poori
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As i reached home at 9pm, mom had made delicious Shev poori. She got a pastry for me which i later cut ( assuming it as a cake). Dad was not at home. He had gone to Nasik for some work. I missed him. 

On my birthday i just stayed alone and happy. Not being dependent on anyone for happiness is best feeling. I felt like king of my own kingdom and there were no sorrows in my kingdom. Many people who are close to me, forgot to wish me on the day. But i just did not care.
By now i have learned to stay happy alone. I have started enjoying my own company. I have realised, i always kept myself within boundaries. But now for the first time i could break those boundaries. I am feeling like i am a free bird.

p.s. This is my first post via iPad. I prefer physical keyboard on laptop. Today gave a try with iPad. Enjoyed typing onscreen.