Being myself on birthday – 2015

Last month I was talking to one of my friend. She asked what are my plans for birthday? I said “Goa“. The moment I said Goa, memories of last year flashed in my mind. I was at Goa in last January and it was a real tough time. But this time it was different.

I kept the plan a secret. I also kept my birthday hidden on Facebook so that I don’t get unwanted notifications and messages. These days i feel, it is just a formality to wish someone on Facebook. Since I had kept birthday invisible, I got relieved from unwanted formal birthday wishes.

I planned to reach Palolem by evening of 2nd April. Spend birthday on beach and fly back to Mumbai on 4th April.

On 2nd April, I reached Palolem by 7:30 pm. It was dark by the time I arrived. Sound of waves and land breeze was a perfect welcome for me. I walked down towards Beach Huts where I had bookings done. The feeling of being at beach was awesome. I entered my hut and got amazed. It had a beautiful beach view. Right from my hut, I could see Monkey island and beautiful Palolem beach. The scene was very romantic. It is perfect place for lovebirds to have quality romantic time. I was alone and I could feel the romance in the air.

View from my hut
Panoramic view from my hut

I kept luggage in the room and started walking on the beach. I fell in love with sound of waves. Kinare song from Queen movie was on my playlist and I was having best time of my life. After spending relaxing time on beach, I was at a beach restaurant. They had arranged dinner tables on beach along with candle lights. I could see full moon with beautiful stars right in front of a candle at my table. I had ordered Goa’s special Prawns curry and rice.  There I had a visitor. A dog walked down towards me and sat next to my table. I think he did not want me to eat alone. He gave me a lovely company.

A dinner was followed by a long walk on beach. By the time it was 10:30 pm, I was tired. So I started reading a novel. It was novel by S Hussain Zaidi – My name is Abu Salem. By the time it was 11:30pm, I kept novel and phone aside and went for a walk on beach. Night was even more beautiful with those ariel firecrackers. There was a wedding ceremony at the other end of the beach. I considered it as someone was telling me that “Hey brother, look there! Sky is beautiful and it’s a special night”. I did not realise it was 12 am. I was looking right at the moon. He had a bright smiling face. I felt loved! The universe was sending me love. I never felt this much amazed in my life. After a peaceful walk, I went inside hut and found my phone ringing. That was Minu. Very sweetly she wished me happy birthday. And then Mom called. I felt so much loved. I wanted to hug her right then.After talking to her, I switched off my phone because I did not want to answer any unwanted call. And then I went gentle into that good night, waiting for beautiful sun to rise.

It was a special morning. I woke up at 5:30 in the morning. I got fresh and went for swimming. Sea was warm and pleasant. I dived in and kept breathing the fresh air. Sun was still hiding under easterly direction and I was eagerly waiting for him to rise and wish me on my birthday. The feeling was awesome. I could feel the joy in the air. The calmness of sea and silence of beautiful morning was making me feel special. By the time I finished swimming, sun was above horizon and showing off his orange color. I was continuously staring at sun. It was a great feeling. I never felt so much relaxed before. I closed my eyes and prayed.

Freedom
Freedom

After swimming, I decided to go for kayaking. It was early morning and sea was calm. It was best time to go for kayaking. I took a dry bag along, kept my goggle, mobile phone inside and headed towards sea. I started stroking with paddle and within no time, I was moving away from shore. I kept stroking hard as if I wanted to run away from everything. I never felt like stopping and looking back. I know if i look back, I will be worried about what has left behind. So I chose not to look back and kept stroking. After boating for half an hour, I was very far from land. I stopped stroking and let the boat settle. Loosened up my grip and stretched my legs and lied down on boat. I managed to balance myself. At that moment I was right inside sea and nobody was around. I had goggles on and i was looking at blue sky. My world never felt so calm before. I counted 100 to 0 (what i frequently do to get relaxed). After counting till number zero, I started stroking again and made a 180 degree turn to head towards coast.

As I started heading towards coast, I saw some black colored object right ahead of me. I did not care to observe. I kept stroking. And then again I saw that. I tried to focus. And it was a dolphin. I could not believe my eyes. Three number of dolphins were right 100 meters away from me and were crossing my path from right to left. I stopped and kept admiring them. I felt like those dolphins did not want me to be alone in sea and came to wish me on my birthday. I never felt so amazed before. I had special visitors.

Day at the beach
Day at the beach

I spent rest of the day relaxing on beach, reading a novel and enjoying beautiful view. A day was about to end and sun was heading towards west direction. It was a beautiful scene. Sun was turning into orangish and I was walking on the beach. I had headphones on and Bryan Adams on my playlist. I was observing people enjoying at the beach. Fishermen were getting ready with their boats, kids were building forts with sand, lovebirds were enjoying swimming, sun was setting down and I was walking without worries. It was a great feeling. I never felt alone. As the sun was setting down, I was observing how he was changing his color from golden to orange to red. He was waving me a good bye. I clicked him. He looked special. I kept looking at him and thanked for all happiness and strength.

Sunset
Sunset

After dinner, I was again at beach. It was dark. I was sitting on sand and observing the waves. I felt addicted. Though I was alone, I never felt alone. I was happy. I had inner peace. A perfect birthday was about to end. I looked at the moon and he was still smiling. It was midnight and I was King of my happy kingdom.

That day I realised that my world isn’t big. It is very tiny. It has space only for happiness. This journey started with #100HappyDays and here here I am. Stress-free, Happy and Dreaming.

A real beginning of Happy Days

Ahh! Its was an awesome month of August. I still cant believe that everything happened very fast. It was a magical journey. It all started in month of July when i received an email from HR of IndiGo Airlines asking to send documents for written exam at New Delhi for the post of Junior first officer. That was an unexpected invitation. I had no hopes from IndiGo Airlines to conduct exam for A320 type rated pilots. But it happened. Happened for a good reason.

I studied hard for this exam. I did not want to repeat the same mistake i did while studying for GoAir exam. Though i cleared GoAir exam, i was not having enough confidence while undergoing interview. IndiGo written exam was scheduled on 23rd July and i decided to fly to delhi a night before. By midnight of 23rd I landed at New Delhi and decided to spend a night at T3. After studying till 4am i fell asleep at the airport waiting lounge. It was not at all comfortable to rest on those metal benches. But somehow i managed. By 7’o clock i got up, changed cloths and headed towards exam centre. I decided not to cheat in this exam. I did not ask for help from any fellow candidates. I just wanted to be honest with myself. I knew i have taken a lot of efforts while preparing for this. Exam was good.

After two days, i got a notification of email on my iPad. It was a result of written test. I successfully cleared it. I jumped with a joy. It was the happiest moment of the month. I thanked myself for this awesome gift.

During next 20 days, i underwent next three stages of selection process. Written test was followed by CASS (psychometry test), Technical & HR interview and Simulator check. By 17th August, i had cleared all four stages and now waiting for an official joining letter from IndiGo Airlines. I am sure i will be receiving it very soon.

This period of July-August was a life changing period for me. I never thought life would give me so many surprises. In this period i had cleared graduation exams, RTR license renewal, i cleared all stages of IndiGo Airlines. And one more special incident occurred in this period. I called McDonalds at Secunderabad where i met Divya ‘ A girl with golden smile’. I found McD’s phone number from online directory, i inquired about her, someone told me she had left the job few months ago. I requested to relay my message to her. Message was “Call me”.

After one and half hour, i got a call from her. She was very happy that i remembered her and could not believe we were talking. I was in tears of happiness after we talked. I never thought i would be able to contact her. She was equally missing me like i did. She tried to find me everywhere on facebook/google plus/other social media. She said she always had faith that someday we will meet. Its a small world. It was ‘Friendship day’ when i found her. This was the best friendship day ever in my life.

Back in 2012 at McDonalds, we used to look at each other and smile. We did not talked much. Like in hindi they say आंखो हि आंखो मे बाते. Her smile made me forget every sorrow in my life. I have always seen her in McD uniform. All the time she wore a cap during her working shift. Now after two years when she showed me her photo, i was stunned. She is a really beautiful girl. I seriously did not expect her to be so beautiful. Actually at McD i never noticed anything except her smile and beautiful eyes. It was a beautiful shock for me.

I like her and i know she likes me too. But there is always a perfect time for every thing. I am not forcing myself to fall for her nor i don’t want her to do same at this moment. She believes in destiny. If its written, it will happen. I believe same.

She is very lucky for me. I found her and within two weeks time, i did clear all stages at IndiGo Airlines. I do want to stay lucky forever with she next to me.

I never thought life will bring me bundle of happiness after a very tough time. Few months ago I was a broken man with lots of depression. But i kept on believing in myself. I knew it was a temporary sorrow. Life will be awesome very soon. Then i took 100happydays challenge. It really changed my life. And made me extremely positive person. Now i am stronger than ever and aiming high in my life. I want life to surprise me with lots of joy and happiness. Its a real beginning of happy days.

My previous posts about ‘A girl with golden smile’Part 1, Part 2

My post previous about 100happydays – What I learnt in #100HappyDays?

What I learnt in #100HappyDays?

Today i successfully completed 100happydays challenge. I am feeling very happy. I never thought i would be able to complete it. But i did it. I did not realise how fast these 100 days passed. Everyday i decided to do something different which kept me happy. During these 100 days, i discovered various ways to keep myself happy. Being happy is easy but extending it for 100 days was a big task. I kept faith in myself, i kept on telling my self “Everything is prefect, Everything is alright, I am gonna win”

This 100 days challenge was not just to tell people that i can stay happy forever, but it was to discover myself and finding a reason to stay happy. In these 100 days i realised one thing and that is ‘we should not find a reason to stay happy. Happiness is everywhere. Its just our mind which is stealing our happiness. Keep your mind aside. Listen to your heart.’

The day i started this challenge, i was very angry on my life. My life sucked at that time. I had a heartbreak, i suffered a failure in major events. It was a tough time. I desperately wanted to get out of it. I found www.100happydays.com while reading on internet and within very next moment i decide to take this challenge thinking this will change my life.

A positive aspect of 100happydays is i kept on looking happiness in each and every thing. I never stayed dependent on few specific thing. I found happiness minute things like kids playing cricket/ writing notes to myself/ driving to countryside/ watching sunset etc. While starting this challenge i had decided that i will not spend much money to buy happiness. I wanted a pure happiness. This helped me to learn how to stay happy even if i am sucking at money. Few times i faked happiness. It was because i used to get very sad thinking about past. But those fake happiness used to make me happy for a change. It was like i was fooling my mind that everything is fine and i am happiest person in this world. This helped a lot.

Lot of my friend took this in funny way. Many made jokes about it. Some even commented that i am going stupid. I used to feel bad. But i ignored. Only i knew that the moment was special. Only i can know how beautiful life was during that moment. It was my happy moment and only i knew importance of it. Comments and jokes from friends helped me to adapt one more important skill. That is ignoring what does not matter to me. This really helped. This was the biggest achievement of this challenge.

Now after 100 days, i am feeling stronger, happier and focused. I have lot of good thing to do in my life. I have few dream and goal. 100happydays challenge definitely helped me to discover who i am. I took this challenge because i wanted to.

Happiness is a journey. Not a destination