It was year 2016 when I started thinking about getting married. I had a nice job, i had bought a new house and everything was in place. My parents kept asking me about marriage plans and i kept avoiding until then. I was not dating anyone since long and was not close to any girl. So i decided to go for arrange marriage. I started searching girls on matrimonial websites. After searching more than hundred girls, i shortlisted 5 girls. I found out their contact numbers and told my parents to talk to those girl’s parents about marriage.
My parents contacted one girl’s parents and planned a meeting. Our families met after 4 days. Me, my parents and my niece went to girl’s house. At first sight her family looked well educated and friendly. My family showed interest and her’s responded with same. Few days later i decided to meet this girl over a coffee. We spoke for 30 minutes over a coffee. By that time i figured out that she is a nice girl. After few meetings she said that she has agreed to get married. And at that was the start of chaos in my life.
We got engaged after one month and later got married after five months. During those five months i had negative feelings about this marriage and was wanting to pull back. I also wrote about this in my diary. But i stayed optimistic and continued and got married in November 2016.
Things were good until couple months of marriage. After one month, she started complaining that she wont be able to do any work in home (e.g. making breakfast, grocery shopping, cooking). She said “ I never did such works at my parents house. I wont do it here. I want full time maid for these works”. I told her that everybody in this house is having some responsibilities and task. We all have to work as a team and stay happy. Cooking was never an issue because my mom used to cook everyday. My mom sometimes used to ask for help. To be honest i always wanted my mom to cook for me because i love what my mom cooks. I never liked what this girl used to cook. She must have never cooked in her entire life. Her cooking was tasteless but i never made complaint about food. I was against keeping maid for all jobs.
After few months we all went for family dinner. While having dinner at restaurant, she started arguing with me about food choices. I told her to stay calm and discuss these things as we reach home. But she kept arguing and spoiled family dinner. Later when we reached home, my mom was trying to talk to her and wanted to calm her down. This girl refused to stay calm and started arguing with mom.
We all ignored what happened that day and started living normal life. I noticed that she never used to talk to my parents. Never used to respect them. My parents are very down to earth and friendly. They live simple and private life. I had no idea why this girl was so much against my parents.
We did not even completed one year of marriage and one fine day something unexpected happen. It was day of Lakshmi Poojan (Diwali) in year 2017. My mom told to this girl to do pooja and said “You are a leading lady in this house and this is your first year in this house. I want you to perform rituals”. She said “No. I want to go to my parents house as they are waiting for me”. Unfortunately i was not at home. I was out of country and couldn’t handle that situation. She left house on that auspicious day of Diwali.
After that day, i kept visiting her parents house. I wanted her to come back and start living together. Her parents gave me a condition – ‘You have to start living separate from parents. We dont want our daughter to stay with your parents’. I told them that it is not possible because i believe in complete family. Staying together brings happiness at home. Her parents and she did not agree. I kept trying for several months but nothing worked. In fact she and her family used to abuse me and send me back. We also arranged a family meeting and tried to sort out thing. But it did not help. She abused me and my father in front of everyone by calling us beggar. I still remember those harsh words.
After waiting for long seven months i decided to speak to lawyer. I sent her a notice so that she can come back and start staying with me. But she did not respond to that notice. Instead she wrote a email saying she is happy with her parents and is not coming back unless i leave my parents. I still waited and filed for a divorce.
I thought she will change her mind but she responded with maintenance notice. This complicated things. She is staying away from me, doesn’t want to come back but still demands maintenance.
After third hearing in court, judge suffered a heart attack and passed away. That caused six months delay for next hearing. Yesterday was first hearing with new judge. He spoke to me and wanted me to rethink about divorce. I told him that i am very much sure about it. As there is no more love and we are not living together since almost two years. Things are not good between us and i want separation.
Judge gave next hearing date on 9 September 2019. I hope things get sorted out soon and i get divorce.
i tried and gave my 100% to save this marriage. Later i realised that i was actually begging and lost all self-respect. My bonding with her never went well as there was no mutual understanding. She kept demanding separation. I lost all love an attachment and decided to speak to lawyer.
In her reply to divorce notice, she has said that “I am ready to sign on divorce papers only if i get one crore rupees (10 million rupees)”.
She is master in dentistry (MDS). She has her own dental clinic in sector 21, Nerul, Navi Mumbai, MH, India. She is working as a professor in dental college in Ahmednager. Her financial condition is very good. She wants more money to stay happy.
The bitter truth in this world is Money > happiness
I grew up driving Maruti Suzuki Omni. Mostly known as kidnapping car. Pappa bought Omni in year 2001 and i was in class 8. When Pappa bought Omni, he did not know how to drive a car. But later he learnt gradually. I was very curious to drive at that young age. So I asked my neighbour uncle to teach me how to drive. Yes I was underaged but I was crazy. He took me for a drive and I learnt it within 2 days. I could feel freedom while driving. We still have Omni with us. She is still healthy and smooth. She is in Nasik protecting out house.
As I started working as a pilot, I always wanted to but a new car. So I started hunt in mid 2015. I did test drive for almost dozen cars but there was only car which stuck chords of my mind. That was VW Vento TSI. This car has 1.2 L petrol automatic engine with turbo charger. I specially loved its sports mode. I never drove car like this before. Every car I took for test drive could not be compared with Vento. One fine day I went to showroom and booked Vento. I was vey happy that day.
Soon after few days my dream shattered. Those days I was also looking for house to buy in Mumbai. I found a nice house in Nerul, Navi Mumbai. My parents really liked that property and we decided to buy it. After working on finances, I figured out that if I want to buy a house, I wont be able to buy a car because there was a shortage of 10-15 lakh rupees. So I cancelled my car booking. That was very tough decision but it was a wise one. Later I purchased that same house. It is a dream house with 3 bedrooms and breathtaking view. Its a dream house for any guy in his late 20s. That time my finances were very tight but i knew it was a wise decision.
I kept doing test driving for cars in mean time. Truly speaking I never liked any other car other than Vento. Car which impressed my were out of my budget. I was waiting for perfect time to buy car.
As we always say ‘whatever happen, happens for a reason’. I did not buy car in 2015 but bought a house. Now I have a dream house and I dont have to worry for next 30-40 years.
I again started doing serious search for car in mid 2018. I did not tell anyone about it. I kept visiting car showrooms for test drives. But still there was only one car in my mind and heart. And that was VW Vento TSI. I went to nearby showroom and enquired about it. There i saw Vento in Flash red colour. It was a sports edition with spoiler, black mirrors and black roof. It was a sexy looking car and at that moment I decided to this car.
I did not inform my parents about it. I wanted to surprise them. They did not even a fraction of idea about it. I told car showroom not to send any paperwork at my house. If my parents see that paperwork, they will come to know that i am buying a car. Though my friends and sisters knew about it, I kept it super secret at home. I decided delivery date as 1 Sept 2018. This was my mom’s 54th birthday.
One day prior to delivery, I went to showroom to see my car. She was looking sexy. I couldn’t wait to feel her. I told showroom employees to not to reveal anything when I come with my parents to take car delivery.
On day of delivery, i told my parents that i will take them to temple as it was mummy’s birthday. So they instantly agreed on it. As they were getting ready, I quickly took my camera and tripod and went to showroom. I placed my camera facing my car and so that i could capture each and every moment. I briefed showroom employee Karan how to switch on video camera and told him to turn it on when I tell him.
I went home, my mom was wearing saree and dad was wearing shirt and trouser. We took a auto-rishaw towards car showroom. I told driver to stop 100 meters before car showroom. We all got down and were standing on road. I told my parents that my friend Nitin is coming with us and we all will go in his car. I made a fake call from my phone and pretended that Nitin is coming late. I told my parents “Nitin will take more 15 minutes to come. Let’s stand somewhere here. Or hmmm lets go to this VW showroom. We will check out some cars till Nitin comes.” My parents nodded.
I called Karan that we are coming in 30 seconds and start video recording. He pressed REC button just before we entered showroom. The moment my father entered showroom, he went close to red car and started admiring her. My mom was looking around inside showroom. She noticed Ganesh idol moorti and did namaskar. I told my parents “VW has nice cars and are sophisticated. They also have automatic cars. This red car is also automatic and is very comfortable”. My parents nodded. “Lets hop inside” I said.
My dad was sitting on rear seat and mom in front seat as I was on driver seat. I was telling my parents about few feature of this car. I asked my mom did she like this car? She replied “Yes”. I said let’s take this car home today. Happy birthday. This is our car and today we are taking delivery of this car. My parents did not know ho to react. They were surprised. My mom started crying. Those were tears of happiness. I never saw my parents so emotional before. I knew they were happy. Their happiness is my sole purpose of my life.
My mom wiped her tears and as we came out, cake was ready. She cut birthday cake along with new member of our family. I was very happy. We took keys and drove home in our brand new red car.
Now when I look behind, I feel so much proud of myself.
Icing on the cake was when i saw my car’s registration number. It was MH 43 BN 0304. I couldn’t believe it. My date of birth is 3 April. 03 04 means 3 April. I asked Karan if he requested RTO to allot this special number for my car? He said ” No sir. I or anyone in showroom did not put any request. You have randomly got this registration number. This was a such a pleasant coincidence”.
This car is very lucky for me. Car was purchased on mom’s birthday and is registered as my date of birth. Even today i feel goosebumps when i think about this coincidence.
Do check pictures taken on that day. Also check out my parents reaction video.
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Hey there. Hello again. Sorry for not writing since long time. I was really caught up with so many thing . I am still caught up but now i have prioritised things. I guess life becomes very easy when we prioritise things. I always lived a hassled life till now but not anymore.
I have something very important coming up in my life. Ahh there are so many things to tell. I will be writing about it in upcoming months.
The path which I have chosen in my life can be difficult one but it will make me march towards my goal. Soon i am going to be a clear winner.
Remember i was talking about dreams coming true? May be you dont remember beccause its been a long that i have written anything on my blog. I was very busy (or you can say i was stuck in a cage) living life. Things have changed a lot nowadays. I am not a same person as i was. These days i like to live private life and also dont like to talk about my personal life. I guess i am out of that phase of life where people love to talk about their personal things. Maybe thats why i havent posted anything on my blog posts. There are so many things which i am hiding within. I may never be able to express.
But let me try it again. Let me start writing again. I have so many things to tell. As i have quit Facebook and Instagram, this is the only place where i will be able to express what is happening in my life.
Lately I have become lazy and not studying for ATPL written and oral examinations. I feel I’m falling behind and lost that pace which I had during year 2013-2014.
There are no secrets to success. It is the result of preparation, hard work, and learning from failure.
I saw that – Karma
When I look back in my past I see lot of turbulence. Till now I have managed to penetrate clouds of turbulence and reached till here. There were many anvil clouds and I kept on dodging it. It was hell of a ride. I turned cautious during every turn of life. In this cautiousness I overlooked shining beautiful clouds. When we are in difficult situation, we tend to skip beautiful aspect of life. Same happened to me. I overlooked beautiful hearts.
In past one year, I have hurt many beautiful hearts. Over cautiousness was accompanied with heartlessness. I apologises. I know Karma is watching me. I am ready for it.
I was partying at Jaipur when clock ticked first moment of year 2015. I never felt so happy before. I was partying alone in unknown crowd. I was dancing like nobody is watching. From corner of my eyes I noticed two girls were hitting on me. But I chose not to bother and continued to dance. I fell in love with city of Jaipur and their culture, food, climate and women.
By last week of January I finished my training and became fully trained pilot on Airbus 320. It is a great feeling to be at controls of an aircraft which is very sophisticated and beautiful to fly.
2015 was unarguably the most happening year in my life. I was flying as a line pilot. Life has become very exciting. Sudden hike in salary made me extremely happy. I never saw that amount of money in my bank account. I had a list of things to buy. I have almost bought everything of that in 2015. I bought furniture for my house, 3 iPhones ( for Mom Dad and myself), Canon 7D Mark II camera, TV, Fridge, Washing Machine and bought a house in Navi Mumbai. This house at Navi Mumbai is a huge one with hills view. I paid a bomb amount of 2.2 crore rupees to buy that. I had also booked a car but later on I changed my mind of buying it.
I earned almost everything in 2015. Only thing I could not find is love. I fell in love ( yes again) but I never had a chance to take it to further level. Since then I changed my mind about love and life. After that I never chased anyone for love nor I fell in love with any girl. I started finding it very confusing. Actually I don’t know if I will be able to find true love. Meanwhile many girls got attracted towards me. I never felt special with any one of them. I just could not fall in love. I kept looking for excuses and kept searching drawbacks in those girls. I accept I hurt a lot of them in 2015 but I had no choice. I was already broken in love. Now I have become a strong man. Actually not strong, I have become a rock. A feeling less rock. But as of now I don’t care about it.
Best thing about 2015 was I kept my parents happy. Their happiness means everything to me. 2015 made me a rich guy. Now I am no more that poor guy who used to get 40 rupees everyday to travel from Nerul to Mumbai University and back. Now I travel in air-conditioned cars, I eat in nice restaurants, I flirt with hot babes, I get lot of attention. My bad days were never permanent. I believed in myself. Now I am standing tall.
2015 proved me that Dreams don’t turn to dust. Hell yeah!
Last month I was talking to one of my friend. She asked what are my plans for birthday? I said “Goa“. The moment I said Goa, memories of last year flashed in my mind. I was at Goa in last January and it was a real tough time. But this time it was different.
I kept the plan a secret. I also kept my birthday hidden on Facebook so that I don’t get unwanted notifications and messages. These days i feel, it is just a formality to wish someone on Facebook. Since I had kept birthday invisible, I got relieved from unwanted formal birthday wishes.
I planned to reach Palolem by evening of 2nd April. Spend birthday on beach and fly back to Mumbai on 4th April.
On 2nd April, I reached Palolem by 7:30 pm. It was dark by the time I arrived. Sound of waves and land breeze was a perfect welcome for me. I walked down towards Beach Huts where I had bookings done. The feeling of being at beach was awesome. I entered my hut and got amazed. It had a beautiful beach view. Right from my hut, I could see Monkey island and beautiful Palolem beach. The scene was very romantic. It is perfect place for lovebirds to have quality romantic time. I was alone and I could feel the romance in the air.
I kept luggage in the room and started walking on the beach. I fell in love with sound of waves. Kinare song from Queen movie was on my playlist and I was having best time of my life. After spending relaxing time on beach, I was at a beach restaurant. They had arranged dinner tables on beach along with candle lights. I could see full moon with beautiful stars right in front of a candle at my table. I had ordered Goa’s special Prawns curry and rice. There I had a visitor. A dog walked down towards me and sat next to my table. I think he did not want me to eat alone. He gave me a lovely company.
A dinner was followed by a long walk on beach. By the time it was 10:30 pm, I was tired. So I started reading a novel. It was novel by S Hussain Zaidi – My name is Abu Salem. By the time it was 11:30pm, I kept novel and phone aside and went for a walk on beach. Night was even more beautiful with those ariel firecrackers. There was a wedding ceremony at the other end of the beach. I considered it as someone was telling me that “Hey brother, look there! Sky is beautiful and it’s a special night”. I did not realise it was 12 am. I was looking right at the moon. He had a bright smiling face. I felt loved! The universe was sending me love. I never felt this much amazed in my life. After a peaceful walk, I went inside hut and found my phone ringing. That was Minu. Very sweetly she wished me happy birthday. And then Mom called. I felt so much loved. I wanted to hug her right then.After talking to her, I switched off my phone because I did not want to answer any unwanted call. And then I went gentle into that good night, waiting for beautiful sun to rise.
It was a special morning. I woke up at 5:30 in the morning. I got fresh and went for swimming. Sea was warm and pleasant. I dived in and kept breathing the fresh air. Sun was still hiding under easterly direction and I was eagerly waiting for him to rise and wish me on my birthday. The feeling was awesome. I could feel the joy in the air. The calmness of sea and silence of beautiful morning was making me feel special. By the time I finished swimming, sun was above horizon and showing off his orange color. I was continuously staring at sun. It was a great feeling. I never felt so much relaxed before. I closed my eyes and prayed.
After swimming, I decided to go for kayaking. It was early morning and sea was calm. It was best time to go for kayaking. I took a dry bag along, kept my goggle, mobile phone inside and headed towards sea. I started stroking with paddle and within no time, I was moving away from shore. I kept stroking hard as if I wanted to run away from everything. I never felt like stopping and looking back. I know if i look back, I will be worried about what has left behind. So I chose not to look back and kept stroking. After boating for half an hour, I was very far from land. I stopped stroking and let the boat settle. Loosened up my grip and stretched my legs and lied down on boat. I managed to balance myself. At that moment I was right inside sea and nobody was around. I had goggles on and i was looking at blue sky. My world never felt so calm before. I counted 100 to 0 (what i frequently do to get relaxed). After counting till number zero, I started stroking again and made a 180 degree turn to head towards coast.
As I started heading towards coast, I saw some black colored object right ahead of me. I did not care to observe. I kept stroking. And then again I saw that. I tried to focus. And it was a dolphin. I could not believe my eyes. Three number of dolphins were right 100 meters away from me and were crossing my path from right to left. I stopped and kept admiring them. I felt like those dolphins did not want me to be alone in sea and came to wish me on my birthday. I never felt so amazed before. I had special visitors.
I spent rest of the day relaxing on beach, reading a novel and enjoying beautiful view. A day was about to end and sun was heading towards west direction. It was a beautiful scene. Sun was turning into orangish and I was walking on the beach. I had headphones on and Bryan Adams on my playlist. I was observing people enjoying at the beach. Fishermen were getting ready with their boats, kids were building forts with sand, lovebirds were enjoying swimming, sun was setting down and I was walking without worries. It was a great feeling. I never felt alone. As the sun was setting down, I was observing how he was changing his color from golden to orange to red. He was waving me a good bye. I clicked him. He looked special. I kept looking at him and thanked for all happiness and strength.
After dinner, I was again at beach. It was dark. I was sitting on sand and observing the waves. I felt addicted. Though I was alone, I never felt alone. I was happy. I had inner peace. A perfect birthday was about to end. I looked at the moon and he was still smiling. It was midnight and I was King of my happy kingdom.
That day I realised that my world isn’t big. It is very tiny. It has space only for happiness. This journey started with #100HappyDays and here here I am. Stress-free, Happy and Dreaming.
Its been 4 months since I have been working at IndiGo. Life has changed a lot since then. Before joining IndiGo I was studying at Mumbai university. I used to travel to university by local train and followed by bus. I never liked my daily routine. But I had no other alternative. I still remember how tired I used to feel while traveling during those peak hours. From Nerul to Kurla station in local train and then to Mumbai university by BEST bus. After finishing lectures, I used to stand at bus stop during rush hours. Life was very hectic.
But now after 4 months, everything has changed. To operate flights, I travel to airport on same road which passes close to Mumbai University. It’s a road on which i have spent my past three years of college life. Earlier I used to travel by BEST bus and now I travel in sedan car with chauffeur on board. Whenever I pass by university gate, I get emotional. Few months ago i was here, lost and tired. But I had hopes. And now I am living my life which i had dreamed of. Its a same road, it has same potholes, buses are same, bus stands are same, rush of passengers is same. World has remained same as it was. But what has changed is me.
When i was jobless, I used to visit a Jari mari. This place is very close to runway 27 of Mumbai airport. I used to sit there for hours just watch aircrafts taking off and land. But now when I operate a flight from Mumbai, I see Jari Mari from my cockpit window. I have an emotional attachment with that place. Few months ago, I used to sit there and dream about sitting in cockpit. And now i am living a dream life. Aircrafts are same, airport is same, runway is same, Jari mari is same. But what has changed is me.
I often operate Goa flights. I really enjoy flying over goa. Specially while landing on runway 08 of Goa. For this approach, aircraft flies over sea and lands on runway which is few hundred meters away from water. I still remember that time in january 2014, I was in deep trouble. I had failed in university exam, had suffered a heart break and had few financial issues. It was a very tough time. So, to make myself relax, I planned Goa trip with Deepak. I had no money back then so Deepak financed it. When in Goa, I visited Baga beach, Aguada fort, Chapora fort and other places. I remember the evening which we spent at Chapora fort. Me and deepak were lying on defensive wall of Chapora fort. On his phone, Deepak played hallelujah song by Jeff Buckley. As sun went down the sea, i went emotional. I felt was very helpless and lost. I closed my eyes and concentrated on lyric. After few minutes, calm breeze, shining stars and music made me relax. After few moments, I opened my eyes and right there in open dark sky I saw one aircraft was flying over beautiful skies of Goa. That aircraft flew west to east right over my head. I was lying there and was dreaming myself in that aircraft. Music, sound of waves, stars and aircraft gave me courage to believe in myself. Those 20 minutes spent there made me strong enough to fight against odd.
Last week when I flew out of Goa, I gave a quick glance at beach. There I could see Aguada fort, Baga beach and Chapora fort. And suddenly series of memories had flashed in my mind. I have achieved my dream of being in airplane which flew over Goa. It was same Goa, beach was same, Chapora fort was same. But what has changed is me.
I always knew I deserve better place in life. Since last one year, the whole world has remained same. But what has changed is me. Time does not stop but it changes for sure. It changed for me because I had a dream and only thing I did was – I protected my dream.
Be a dreamer. Life has awesome surprises ahead.
Life has changed. After a long struggle and patience, life has become awesome. This is what i was dreaming of in past few years. Now I have achieved my dream, its a time to dream big. I am a dreamer and wont stop dreaming.
I have experienced lot of good emotions in past months. September was my first working month. On 30th Sept at morning 11:07 am, I received a sms from HDFC bank stating that my first salary has been credited. I got very emotional and called my father. He was very happy for me. On the next day, I flew to Mumbai to meet my parents and handed over my first salary. With my first salary, I gifted dad a new iPhone 5C. His previous phone was highly damaged and in bad condition. With iPhone, now he can FaceTime (Video call) me and can also click photographs. Also mom bought a beautiful saree. I could not meet my sisters as they both were not keeping well. I missed them during my short visit to Mumbai.
I also met ‘The girl who broke my heart’. It was her birthday. I wished her on phone. She wanted to meet. As I got inside her car, I presented her chocolates and a gifts. I kissed her (on cheeks) and said “Happy birthday. May god give you all the happiness, love and health. You were and are very special”. She was emotional because she knew she have messed up our friendship (and my love). I could not see her crying.
Also it was a day which is very special for me and my ex girlfriend. We started dating on same day in year 2008. I still remember the date but did not wish her because I don’t want her to remember her past. She is happy in her present and I want her to stay happy forever.
After couple of days, I flew back to Delhi. 10th October was my graduation day at IndiGo. My parents were in Delhi for the occasion. It was very emotional day for me and my parents. After 4 and half years of patience and struggle, everything was fine. I was in uniform and my parents were feeling proud. That was the first time, I could not control my emotions. I went into tears after receiving epaulettes and training completion certificate.
Right now I am sitting at a luxurious hotel room at Bangalore. Accommodation is arranged by IndiGo. A life which i was dreaming of has begun. Now its a time to dream bigger and grow bigger.
p.s. For the past few weeks, I could feel that ‘Girl with Golden smile’ is trying to avoid me. She did not answer phone calls and messages. I dont know the reason for this sudden change. I did not ask why is she doing this. I may never ask what went wrong because emotion makes us fool and reality makes us stronger.
On april 3rd I was celebrating my birthday with mom (dad was out of town). She had got few pastries and made Pani puri. That day i turned 26. As we were celebrating, I looked at mom. She was emotional. She said “I have only one wish. I want to see you flying”. I told her”, “Don’t worry mom. Everything is fine. I will definitely get my dream job before your birthday”. I hugged her and we both smiled.
Moms birthday was on 1st September. I did not know how would i get my dream job before moms birthday. Everything was blank in front of my eyes. But i kept telling myself that ‘No matter what, I will get my dream job before 1st September’.
Last year, my ex-girlfriend told me about a book called “The Secret- by Rhonda Byrne”. This book talks about positive thinking and law of attraction. I really thank my ex-girlfriend for suggesting me this book. After reading this book, I kept thinking positive about everything. I made a wish-board and pinned all the things which i wanted. After few months i could see it was working. While surfing through online social communities, i had a chance to talk to a Naina. She is also a believer of Law of attraction. We used to discuss about our respective dreams and things we wanted in life. We were strangers but we still kept our positive conversation. This helped me to stay motivated. She helped me a lot in this process. I really thank her for this. I would never have been so positive without her.
As moms birthdays was approaching, i could see that Law of attraction was working in effective way. By August end i had cleared all selection processes at IndiGo and was waiting for joining letter. I wanted to see my mom to be happy on her birthday. I did not get joining letter till her birthday. But very next day i received a call from IndiGo HR informing about my joining. There it was. Though law of attraction was late by a day, it worked. Mom and dad were in kitchen, i hugged them and said “I will be joining IndiGo a day after. Its a dream come true.” Mom and dad were in tears. I have never seen them that happy ever before.
I joined IndiGo on 4th September 2014. Its been a great journey. If you read my past posts, you will realise how tough it was to reach till this stage. But nevertheless, I made it and i am happy. IndiGo was always a dream company for me. Its a great feeling when i put on my IndiGo identity card or when i see First Officer tag on my company profile.
Its a new beginning. I thank everyone who contributed to this. Thanks to my ex-girlfriend, thanks to ‘a girl who broke my heart’, thanks to all my friends who believed in me, thanks to Naina. Special thanks to my parents, sisters and Ajinkya (my bestie).
I always believed in myself. Never took ‘No’ for an answer. Now i have a new role to play in my life. A role as a Captain Nimish Ghandat, First Officer, IndiGo. I’m loving it.
Ahh! Its was an awesome month of August. I still cant believe that everything happened very fast. It was a magical journey. It all started in month of July when i received an email from HR of IndiGo Airlines asking to send documents for written exam at New Delhi for the post of Junior first officer. That was an unexpected invitation. I had no hopes from IndiGo Airlines to conduct exam for A320 type rated pilots. But it happened. Happened for a good reason.
I studied hard for this exam. I did not want to repeat the same mistake i did while studying for GoAir exam. Though i cleared GoAir exam, i was not having enough confidence while undergoing interview. IndiGo written exam was scheduled on 23rd July and i decided to fly to delhi a night before. By midnight of 23rd I landed at New Delhi and decided to spend a night at T3. After studying till 4am i fell asleep at the airport waiting lounge. It was not at all comfortable to rest on those metal benches. But somehow i managed. By 7’o clock i got up, changed cloths and headed towards exam centre. I decided not to cheat in this exam. I did not ask for help from any fellow candidates. I just wanted to be honest with myself. I knew i have taken a lot of efforts while preparing for this. Exam was good.
After two days, i got a notification of email on my iPad. It was a result of written test. I successfully cleared it. I jumped with a joy. It was the happiest moment of the month. I thanked myself for this awesome gift.
During next 20 days, i underwent next three stages of selection process. Written test was followed by CASS (psychometry test), Technical & HR interview and Simulator check. By 17th August, i had cleared all four stages and now waiting for an official joining letter from IndiGo Airlines. I am sure i will be receiving it very soon.
This period of July-August was a life changing period for me. I never thought life would give me so many surprises. In this period i had cleared graduation exams, RTR license renewal, i cleared all stages of IndiGo Airlines. And one more special incident occurred in this period. I called McDonalds at Secunderabad where i met Divya ‘ A girl with golden smile’. I found McD’s phone number from online directory, i inquired about her, someone told me she had left the job few months ago. I requested to relay my message to her. Message was “Call me”.
After one and half hour, i got a call from her. She was very happy that i remembered her and could not believe we were talking. I was in tears of happiness after we talked. I never thought i would be able to contact her. She was equally missing me like i did. She tried to find me everywhere on facebook/google plus/other social media. She said she always had faith that someday we will meet. Its a small world. It was ‘Friendship day’ when i found her. This was the best friendship day ever in my life.
Back in 2012 at McDonalds, we used to look at each other and smile. We did not talked much. Like in hindi they say आंखो हि आंखो मे बाते. Her smile made me forget every sorrow in my life. I have always seen her in McD uniform. All the time she wore a cap during her working shift. Now after two years when she showed me her photo, i was stunned. She is a really beautiful girl. I seriously did not expect her to be so beautiful. Actually at McD i never noticed anything except her smile and beautiful eyes. It was a beautiful shock for me.
I like her and i know she likes me too. But there is always a perfect time for every thing. I am not forcing myself to fall for her nor i don’t want her to do same at this moment. She believes in destiny. If its written, it will happen. I believe same.
She is very lucky for me. I found her and within two weeks time, i did clear all stages at IndiGo Airlines. I do want to stay lucky forever with she next to me.
I never thought life will bring me bundle of happiness after a very tough time. Few months ago I was a broken man with lots of depression. But i kept on believing in myself. I knew it was a temporary sorrow. Life will be awesome very soon. Then i took 100happydays challenge. It really changed my life. And made me extremely positive person. Now i am stronger than ever and aiming high in my life. I want life to surprise me with lots of joy and happiness. Its a real beginning of happy days.
My post previous about 100happydays – What I learnt in #100HappyDays?
Today i successfully completed 100happydays challenge. I am feeling very happy. I never thought i would be able to complete it. But i did it. I did not realise how fast these 100 days passed. Everyday i decided to do something different which kept me happy. During these 100 days, i discovered various ways to keep myself happy. Being happy is easy but extending it for 100 days was a big task. I kept faith in myself, i kept on telling my self “Everything is prefect, Everything is alright, I am gonna win”
This 100 days challenge was not just to tell people that i can stay happy forever, but it was to discover myself and finding a reason to stay happy. In these 100 days i realised one thing and that is ‘we should not find a reason to stay happy. Happiness is everywhere. Its just our mind which is stealing our happiness. Keep your mind aside. Listen to your heart.’
The day i started this challenge, i was very angry on my life. My life sucked at that time. I had a heartbreak, i suffered a failure in major events. It was a tough time. I desperately wanted to get out of it. I found www.100happydays.com while reading on internet and within very next moment i decide to take this challenge thinking this will change my life.
A positive aspect of 100happydays is i kept on looking happiness in each and every thing. I never stayed dependent on few specific thing. I found happiness minute things like kids playing cricket/ writing notes to myself/ driving to countryside/ watching sunset etc. While starting this challenge i had decided that i will not spend much money to buy happiness. I wanted a pure happiness. This helped me to learn how to stay happy even if i am sucking at money. Few times i faked happiness. It was because i used to get very sad thinking about past. But those fake happiness used to make me happy for a change. It was like i was fooling my mind that everything is fine and i am happiest person in this world. This helped a lot.
Lot of my friend took this in funny way. Many made jokes about it. Some even commented that i am going stupid. I used to feel bad. But i ignored. Only i knew that the moment was special. Only i can know how beautiful life was during that moment. It was my happy moment and only i knew importance of it. Comments and jokes from friends helped me to adapt one more important skill. That is ignoring what does not matter to me. This really helped. This was the biggest achievement of this challenge.
Now after 100 days, i am feeling stronger, happier and focused. I have lot of good thing to do in my life. I have few dream and goal. 100happydays challenge definitely helped me to discover who i am. I took this challenge because i wanted to.
Happiness is a journey. Not a destination
When I met them for the first time, I felt they were freak, hyper and loud. But as we spent time together, I realised they were my best buddies in entire college. Minu, Nitya and Sahil were best buddies and were not ready to add fourth person to their group. When we started spending time together neither me nor ‘three’ realised that now it was a group of four. I loved the way Minu, Sahil and Nitya accepted me the way I was. During those days I did not know how to fake things. I was very much simple and innocent guy.
Those days neither of us were having cell phones. No facebook, no whatsapp. Only time when we used to interact was when we used to meet in college. The joy of being together was priceless. I never bunked lectures before that. Our favourite spots were reading hall, bench near ladies common room and Ruia college katta. I still remember the day when I, Minu and Nitya had a chalk fight. It was me vs two girls. Later I had to run inside boys toilet to save myself from getting chalked 😛
We celebrated Saree/Tie day at Centre One, Vashi. For the first time in my life I was in suit and tie. Nitya and Minu were looking very beautiful in Saree and Sahil looked smart in dark brown suit.
Sports day was followed by Saree/Tie day. I was representing cricket team as a bower. When captain handed me ball to open bowling attack, I heard loud cheer from Minu and Nitya. I was never been cheered before that. That was a special time. I took three wicket and by the end of match Minu, Sahil and Nitya were totally mad.
We bunked many lectures for Minu’s dance rehearsals, for Sahil’s singing competition practice. Sahil was practicing ‘Rind posh mall’ song from Mission Kashmir and Minu was learning steps for mashup of ‘Ankhiya na maar ve’, ‘Kajra Re’. Unfortunately I was not able to see their live performance.
Life was at the peak of happiness. Everything was perfect. Nobody knew we were about to part away. As december of 2005 arrived, Nitya got confirmation from University in Sydney for further studies. She planned to shift to Sydney in January. Later in april Minu got admission for physiotherapy studies. I failed first year and decided to quit college for medical entrance test preparation. Sahil stayed at college and finished his studies after two years.
Later next year I failed to score good marks in medical entrance test and i got admission for Commercial pilot training. We all four got busy in our respective life. Few years later Nitya finished her studies and decided to settle down at Sydney, Minu went to Indianapolis for further studies and Sahil went to Auckland for MBA and got settled. Meanwhile I finished pilot training and was selected at Air India for Airbus A320 training.
We four are in four different countries. Everyone is doing well in life. I am happy that we all chose right career path. Spending six month together at Ruia was best time for me. I miss it.
Last time I met Sahil was in January 2014, Nitya in 2008 and met Minu in early 2007. Its been a very long time we haven’t been together.
Someday I will see all them together. I hope. Someday…
Last time i wrote a blog post about my birthday. I really felt nice and special on my birthday. There were few moments in past week when i was again trapped in sad memories. But i am glad that duration of those sad moments were shrunk to few hours. Whenever i used to feel sad, i used to do things which i love most. I watched movies on my laptop, surfed YouTube for funny videos and also diverted my mind by watching porn. I was listening to trance for past few months. Trance is like self-healing for me. It kept me away from all bullshit thoughts. In other respect, trance made me angry too. While in gym, i used to listen to trance and i showed all anger on workout. Once i ran 8 Km while listening to trance. I just kept going. It wont be wrong if I say that i was punishing myself during workout. While lifting weights i used to think “Why it happened to me? Why did I take it casually? Why am I a looser?”. My body suffered a lot during workout. But it turned out to be in positive way for me. In this process I lost calories in my body and now I am lean and healthy.
Since after my birthday i have become a different person(here is my blog post about my birthday). I have stopped chasing people. I started believing that ‘No matter what happens, right people will stay and wrong ones will get eliminated eventually’. This elimination was not easy to accept but after couple of months now i feel that was the best thing ever happened to me. Everything what happens, happens for good cause. People who never deserved me, got eliminated from my life. I thank those who helped me to learn lesson in life.
During these times, i kept telling myself that i am not a bad person. I never did bad to anyone. Good things will happen to me. Few days ago my ex sent me text at night. She was upset with few family issues. We exchanged chats for few minutes. She just wanted to share few things as she felt i was best person to talk to. Later next day, I received a call from a girl for which I had feelings (later i was heartbroken. See story here). She topped her exam and wanted to share this news with me. I am happy for her. I am glad that she remembered me during her happy moments.
From these two incidents, i realized that i am not a bad person. If i was a bad person then i would have not received a call/text from people who parted away from me.
I have forgiven them who left me and cheated on me. They have done thousands of good things for me and did just one thing which hurt me. Value of things which hurt me is nothing in front of values of all good things and good memories i had with them. I have retained positive aspects and let go all sad memories.
I have chosen not to look back. No story has a perfect ending. Every story ends with new beginning. This time new is me and after 40 posts its a true beginning of ‘Nemozine – A dreamer’s life’ blog
Its been three months we are in year 2014 and for the first time i felt nice and happy. I have taken #100happydays challenge on Instagram where i upload a photograph of happiest moment of the day. It surprisingly helped me to stay happy and not to think about things which makes me sad.
My birthday was 21st day on #100happydays list. I wanted my birthday to be the most beautiful birthday ever. So first thing i decided is not to expect any gifts, wishes and visits from friends and family. Half of the problems are solved when we don’t expect anything in return.
My birthdays in 2011 and 2012 were not so awesome due to various reasons. On my last birthday in 2013 i was at hostel room in Hyderabad. All my friends visited me at 12am. There was no electricity. I cut cake in bright focus of mobile phone flashlights. I was taken to dark common room for birthday bumps. That was best birthday till 2013. So i wanted this birthday to be better than previous.
Before birthday midnight i was reading Bhagavad- Gītā. Reading Bhagavad- Gītā keeps me positive and motivated. It was 12 am and i was about to finish Chapter 1. I slept thinking about Arjuna’s thoughts about Mahabharata.
After very long time i had a deep sleep. When i woke up, i saw mummy coming close and she wished me with my favourite ‘Snickers’ chocolate. I hugged her and could not stop smile.
I got ready to attend lecture at Mumbai University. When i reached, everyone was happy to see me. All my friends hugged and wished me. After lecture we all friends had lots of fun while making paper-planes and rockets. I could see smiles everywhere.
After lecture i went to library and stayed there till noon. As i decided not to expect anything from anyone, i went to watch a film. I got in to auto rikshaw and headed towards Phoenix Market City. I booked a ticket for ‘Queen’ movie. I loved it. After long tome i watched a movie alone. Last time i watched a movie alone was Namastey London. Kangana Ranaut is awesome in this movie. Queen made my day.
After movie i went to Subway and ordered My favourite 6 inches long Chicken Ham sub. With take away sub I headed towards Jari Mari. By then i was 5 pm. From Jari Mari one can have view of whole Mumbai Airport. Jari Mari is one of my favourite places in Mumbai. I saw aircrafts landing and taking off. Nothing is magnificent than looking at aircrafts touching down on runway and that white smoke due to friction between aircraft tire and runway.
After Jari Mari i travelled to Marine Drives. I wanted to see birthday sunset at Marine Drives. I always wanted to spend my birthday there. This year i made it possible. As i reached there, sun was just few degrees from horizon. I kept looking at that beautiful scene. I was very happy to be there. While sitting there, i did not miss anyone. I was feeling pure and happy. I did not think of those who left me, who cheated on me or those things which made me unhappy. I kept all negativity out of my brain.
As i reached home at 9pm, mom had made delicious Shev poori. She got a pastry for me which i later cut ( assuming it as a cake). Dad was not at home. He had gone to Nasik for some work. I missed him.
On my birthday i just stayed alone and happy. Not being dependent on anyone for happiness is best feeling. I felt like king of my own kingdom and there were no sorrows in my kingdom. Many people who are close to me, forgot to wish me on the day. But i just did not care.
By now i have learned to stay happy alone. I have started enjoying my own company. I have realised, i always kept myself within boundaries. But now for the first time i could break those boundaries. I am feeling like i am a free bird.
p.s. This is my first post via iPad. I prefer physical keyboard on laptop. Today gave a try with iPad. Enjoyed typing onscreen.
आहटे, हो रही तेरी, दिल के दर पे मेरे,
तू यही है कही ना कही।
आहटे, हो रही तेरी, दिल के दर पे मेरे,
तू यही है कही।
कभी मेरे ख्वाब सा, कभी उलझे जवाब सा।
के चंदा मे भी दाग सा, मेरे जैसा तू।
के दरिया का हो इक सिरा,
के अरमानो का सिलसिला,
के सेहरा मे भी आब सा,
मेरे जैसा तू, मेरे जैसा तू।
आहटे, हो रही तेरी, दिल के दर पे मेरे,
तू यही है कही ना कही।
तेरा हूँ मै, तुझे क्यों ना यकीन है!
चाहत मे मेरी आखिर क्या कमी है?
तुझमे ही तो छुपी मेरी खुदी है।
मेरी खुदी कुछ ना सही।
कुछ ना सही, कुछ ना सही।
आहटे, हो रही तेरी, दिल के दर पे मेरे,
तू यही है कही।
कभी मेरे ख्वाब सा, कभी उलझे जवाब सा।
के चंदा मे भी दाग सा, मेरे जैसा तू।
के तू ही दरिया का है इक सिरा,
के अरमानो का सिलसिला,
के सेहरा मे भी आब सा,
मेरे जैसा तू, मेरे जैसा तू।
आहटे, हो रही तेरी, दिल के दर पे मेरे,
तू यही है कही ना ही।
One saddest thing about being innocent and honest is people take me for granted and try to cheat. I may be smiling but it hurts from inside when someone who is very close to me, tries to do so.
Past couple of months were full of heart breaks and disappointments.
- I did not clear GoAir interview,
- I failed in Financial Management exam (for final year of management studies),
- My ex girlfriend found a new guy (who is no way better than me :p),
- I had fight with my best friend on Goa trip,
- I started liking a girl but later found that she was cheating on me (now she is entertaining a new guy. Even he is no way better than me),
- My family is going through financial crisis
Start for 2014 was eventful. On 6th Jan i was called for interview at GoAir (that was the only awesome thing happened in 2014 for me till date). I studied my ass off for it and gave my best. But i could not impress interviewers to get hired. Getting rejected at airline interview was a biggest disappointment for me.
I could not recover from that shock and in same week i came to know that my ex girlfriend has found a new boyfriend. I have lot of memories with her (my laptop is full of our memories). Suddenly all those memories filled my brain and made me sad. I don’t blame her for what has happened. In fact i am happy for her that someone is taking her good care and keeping her happy. But memories of first hug, first kiss, first rain together, first love will always be stored within my heart.
In that same week, university of Mumbai declared results for final year of management studies (semester 5). Though i topped in two papers, i failed in Financial Management. I suddenly went in to depression. I really wanted to run away from this world and forget all shit has happened to me. Later i planned a Goa trip with my friend. I did not have money to spend so he sponsored my trip along with him. I really had a good time at Goa. But i was not able to forget what had happened with me in last few weeks. I never had stability of mind on that whole Goa trip. I was sad. I wanted to express my sorrowful thoughts to my friend but he was in his own world. I hardly had time to speak my heart out.
Meanwhile since last few months i had become good friend with a girl who stays nearby. We became very close. We used to go for movies, we used to workout together, she said she liked me a lot. I liked her too but i never told her my feelings because memories of my first love was still in my heart. I will never be able to replace my feeling of first love. I was waiting for time to pass so that i could forget old memories and to start developing feeling for this this girl. She cared for me very much. I always felt that this girl is always with me and will support me in every situation. I started having blind faith on her. But since January i noticed one drastic change in her. She had joined aerobics and we were no more working out together. January was a month full of disappointments. i wanted her to stand by me, but she started avoiding me. She kept giving me reasons for everything. Since she was not showing care, i was again dishearten. Suddenly everything changed against me. To recover from this, i had a trip to Goa. But it did not work.
February was eventful month too. My ex called me for help. She had an interview at Jet Airways. She wanted me to teach her few things. Initially i refused to help but later i got ready for it. It was not easy for me to see her again and accepting that she is someone else’s love. When we met i pretended i am alright and happy for her. But i was crying from inside. Later she cleared interview and simulator tests and soon she will be joining Jet Airways.
During that time i wanted my girl (who i liked) to be with me and support me. But she rarely had time for me. When we meet she used to talk about aerobics and a guy who workouts with her. I used to feel dishearten. It added to my stress. I just wanted her to listen to me and be with me but she never gave me that time to hear my heart out. I asked her to spend Valentines days evening with me but she refused it by saying she has aerobics classes and she cant miss those. I did not say anything.
A day after valentines day, i wanted to meet her. She said she will be in library till evening. I desperately wanted to see her because it was raining and weather was very romantic. I drove to her library and planned to wait till evening to see her lovely smile. But then i saw her leaving library in afternoon. She got into car. I wanted to give her surprise but she drove her car away before she could see me coming. I followed her but i could not overtake her due to traffic. After few minutes she stopped her car. I thought to walk towards her and say hi! As i was getting out of my car, i saw one guy entering her car. I was shocked. He was that same guy in her aerobics classes.
She started driving and i followed her. I called her few times while driving but she did not respond despite seeing me on call. She did not notice i was following her. I wanted to know where she was going. She told me she will be in library but in real she was with this person. She drove her car towards movie theater. As she parked her car, i got out and went to her. She was shocked to see me. I did not expect this from her. She cheated on me. I was helpless and cursed my destiny.
On the way back, i was crying in my car. I was a completely helpless soul.
I wish i never had feelings for her. These days i see her driving along with same guy. When i see them together, i die every time. She liked me a lot and said i was very special for her. But i never thought it was a lie.
I always wanted to recover from depression but these series of events made me weak and sad. Its been almost a month, i am recovering from it. Its not easy but i can see improvement within.
In last few months i experienced series of rejections in each and every event. I wrote diary whenever i used to feel low. I kept watching inspiring videos on YouTube. I never stopped working out in gym. I challenge myself in gym and train hard.
This though period is still not over. But i am sure it will pass by and very soon i will be a strong person. I have promised myself that i will never think of revenge. I will keep doing my karma. Good things will happen to me.
At this time, i have a lot things to write. I have numerous topics to share on blog. But i am waiting for a perfect time. Every time I click on “New Post” tab and start writing but eventually i realize that this is not perfect time to share it to world through my blog. Today i logged in to WordPress to write about a sensitive topic. But then i realized that this is not time to do so. May be after few months i will write about it.. At this moment i may be in perfect mental condition to write about this topic but i never want to write something which will send negative vibes to reader.
I prefer writing when i am positive and energetic. It makes me feel motivated when i read my previous posts. But am I being fake? Am i hiding other side of me? I do get low and loose confidence. There is huge amount of stress in my life which I never try to express on my blog. Am i pretending that i am living happy and satisfied life? Sometimes i feel i should also write about my struggle and how i am tackling it in my life. May be it will give me confidence in future when i will be reading my posts. It will be my support during low times. But i fear that my blog will become full of sorrowful posts. I think i should give a try for it. What do you think? Please comment below
What a person wants in his life? All the hard work he does is for what reason? What is ultimate goal of his efforts? What he expects from his surrounding? All these questions may have different meaning but their answers lies in one word. And that word is ‘Happiness’. Happiness is answer to all the questions in his life. Motive behind every act of human is related to happiness. A man earn money to serve his and his family’s needs to stay happy. Alcohol addict fill his glass with wine to forget his sorrow and feel happy. This may be an artificial happiness but this happiness which lasts for short time, makes him to forget his all sorrows.
Happiness is an extremely tricky word. A man can do anything to get happy. Anything means he can go to all possible limits. Those limits can be positive or negative. He don’t bother about sufferings he will experience while going to various limits. All he know is that at the end there is a pleasant situation which will make him forget his sorrows and live better life. That pleasant situation is called as Happiness.
Human psychology of happiness is a vast field of study. I am not a great learner of human psychology. This post may be conflicting with studies done by experts. This is purely based on my thinking.
Lets get back to Happiness. Path of happiness is not always easy. Sometimes this path turns out so bad that a person has to choose between vital sections of his life. So while choosing between those things, he makes various mistakes. He looses many opportunities. And yes – he looses his dear ones. This is not in all cases when he looses support of his dear ones. But according to studies, in about 73% of cases, it was found that the person who is working hard to achieve happiness tends to hurts his dear ones. And in about 49% of cases his dear one end up in fight and then they part away. This is very sad part of the process of happiness when his dear ones leave him. He does all hard work just to see him and his dear one happy. But this process is so complected that it may cause blunder in ones life. At this time a person may loose hopes and may shatter very badly. He does all efforts to see his people happy and he expects support from his people. “Support” is a vital aspect of any Happiness process. It can be called as catalyst in this process. When he get support, this process goes in smooth flow. without support it becomes hard to survive. Once damage done, it is very difficult to repair.
Support and Happiness process can be called as two sides of a coin. Both sides have to be with each other.
A man starts Happiness process keeping in mind ‘future together’ with dear ones. But lack of support from his dear ones end up in breaking relation and sorrow. There is only one thing i can tell to those who dont get support from their dear ones.
Don’t cry because it’s over, smile because it happened. Forget past and get happy again
|Milkha- The Flying Sikh|
I wanted a serious break after finishing stressful training. I reached Mumbai with all my luggage and guitar. But it was not beginning for rest period for me. Shweta had RTR exam. She wanted me to teach her. I started her coaching on very next day i reached Mumbai. After three day training she headed for Delhi and next day i headed for Nasik. My father owns row house at Nasik Road. But this is not typical row house. You can call it mini-bungalow. This house is airy and big. I love staying here. Climate at Nasik is so good, i did not sweat here since i reached here. Life is very relaxing over here.
Deepak was in Mumbai and he was pissed off because of boredom. He had some work at Nasik, he traveled to Nasik to meet me. Seeing him after very long time was a good feeling. He is totally animated and crazy. He came to Nasik for three days.
|A devotee enjoying Dive|
Next day we headed to Panchvati. A holy place along Godavari river bed. Panchvati is a holy place in Hindu religion. There were many devotee who came to seek blessings. Men were enjoying swimming in river. I tried to click some of them.
After few clicks and flicks, we headed to Pandav Leni where 1200 year old caves of Lord Buddha were are carved. Pandav Leni was carved by Buddhist king for comfort and stay of Saints. This place is very beautiful and well maintained by Maharashtra government.
|Pandav Leni carved caves|
Today after finishing his official work Deepak left for Mumbai. Now I am back to my sweet palace( my home). Its awesome to be felt relaxed. After spending time with Shweta and then Deepak, I finally got time for myself. But I won’t be getting much time to relax. Air Asia will be conducting selection test very soon. So I have just a day or two to relax.
It was a perfect day for a flight. Light cross winds, OAT 32 degree,cloud at 4000 feet.
Me and Divakar left Hyderabad in bus a day before fam flight. Bus was a Ac sleeper. When we booked a ticket, arrival time was 7:30am but in real it was 9:30am. We were very scared because we will be reporting late at airport. Next day we reported at 10:30am. Capt. Tony Davis was angry on us. He quickly got calm and started briefing. We 4 had flight that day. Me, Divakar, Mitanshu and Suzanne. After breath analyzer test, we headed to departure gate. And my my… I loved the way people were staring at me. I was in uniform and carrying flight bag. Air India vehicle took us to Air India A320 VT-EPC aircraft. She was beautiful. Creamy white body and red tail was an eye catcher. Capt. Sameer took us for external inspection. I was feeling like hugging her. A320 is a dream aircraft.
After external we were all set to go. Suzanne was on control along with Capt. Tony Davis. Capt. Sameer and Mitanshu were n jump seat. Only me and Divakar were in cabin. It was awesome feeling to roam around in cabin. After Suzanne, Mitanshu and Divakar, it was my turn to get on to controls. It was a feeling to die for. I started taxi. She was responding like butter. I lined her up on runway 07 threshold. Take-off clearance and there we go. Stabilized, Flex and she was gaining speed. Within no time she got airborne. It was light aircraft and she climbed very fast. I did not feel any difference between simulator and actual aircraft. ATC vectored us for ILS rw 07. On finals it was time for visual approach. As I was approaching runway my concentration was getting deeper. 50 feet thrust idle. 20 feet flare. She touched down very smooth. We went ahead for touch and go. After that I did one more touch and go and one full stop landing. 2nd landing was smoothest of all. After 3 rd landing we started taxing in. I was on controls. As we reached near parking bay Capt. Tony Davis took controls. Parking checklist and shut down check list. And it was over. Last few hours were more satisfying hours of my life. I pinched myself to realize that I actually flew A320.
Flying A320 was a dream. Now it has become passion.
Its been a week since I have started Fixed base simulator training. Its awesome feeling to fly A320. But flying this beautiful airplane is not so easy. I need to work hard to master this plane. Today was 5th session. Capt. Sandeep Rana and Capt. M K Dutta are my instructor. I have never seen cool and down to earth instructors like them. They breif me very well before training session. I could see my instructors are giving more than 100% for my training. But I am lacking somewhere. I am not doing self study and not reading enough after every training session. If I keep doing this then it will be very bad for me. This training is a serious business. I have to stay focused and calm.
Hyderabad is not great city. Atleast the place where I live is very boring. My dad has sold almost everything for my training. We don’t have more money. So I have decided to stay in cheap hostel. Its a 13 feet x 7 feet room which includes washroom. Fan in my room is faulty. It doesn’t fasten up. So it becomes very hot inside. Its not at all good place to stay while doing training but I have no option. Food here is also not good. It is edible but I miss good food. Because of all these sad conditions and environment I feel very lonely in here. I don’t have anyone to talk and share time. I tried to chat with friends on whatsapp. But I can’t ask their time everyday. I guess because I chat very often, people started avoiding me. I have realized one thing in past 4 months- If you tell someone that you have feeling for them, then that person get full authority to play with your emotions.
Now I have decided to not be get into any emotional trauma. Fuck this lonely feeling. Nobody will care about what I do in my life. Today I am lonely and nobody is with me. But when soon when I will be successful and rich man, everyone will be roaming around me. But that time I will never neglect anyone because I know how it feels to get neglected by someone who you like to talk.
March 2013 is vital month for my career. I will be doing core training of my lifetime in this month. So now I don’t have to loose my focus. Its always better to be heartless than looser in lonelyness. I will never forgive those who made me feel lonely. I have stopped contacting everyone who doesn’t care about me and my feelings. Fuck those who don’t give a shit about me. I have proved myself in past times and I will prove it again everytime.
Forget the world. You are champion
Emotions are like boomerang. If you throw it away, it comes back and hit you. Living without emotions is not possible but living with emotions is not good either. Someone has rightly said that learn to fool your emotions but never let your emotions fool you. Being an emotional person, i try to control myself to express my thoughts. But sometimes emotions overflows. It can overflow in two possible ways. In form of happiness and in form of tears. Emotions in form of tears are very difficult to control because its hard to explain it to someone else. But in case of emotions in form of happiness, its very easy to express it to almost any person. My point is that sad emotions are very difficult to control and stop. There is only one cure for it. And that is to fool your mind. Its not easy in first go but as time passes, it shows good effect. But fooling your emotions may lead yourself turn into heartless. So first learn how to control your feelings, then work on how to fool your mind and try to adapt your lifestyle according to it.
First was Akriti Kakar. She is very beautiful so as her voice. She sung title track of Johnny Gaddar and some more chart buster songs. Mood was setting up nicely for the main event featuring Salim-Suleiman. Salim started with Aye khuda and whole crowd went crazy. Later Benny Dayal, Kirti and one lady singer joined him. Man o man, they have such a fantastic band. The guy on baansuri was mind blowing and drummer was electrifying. They played Aiveyi Aiveyi, o re piya, tauba tauba, kurbaan hua, shukran Allah, maula mere and many more songs. But moment of the day was Chak De India title song. Whole crowd went crazy and were singing along. Me and deepak were dancing on beats. A memorable time it was.
After a concert we headed to Marine Drives. I was lying on my back to see stars. As Mumbai sky is not clean I could see only few stars. I did count them and those were 18 😉 . Sweet sound of waves colliding with shore was making me feel good. I was calm and enjoying the moment. I was right at the queens necklace. After 35 minutes at marine drives we started walking towards CST station. Town looked very beautiful in night. I fell in love with it. To fetch our hunger we checked in to McDonald’s at 11:15pm. 2 Alu Tikki each was a menu for dinner. I don’t like Alu Tikki but at that moment I found it very tasty.
A live concert, Marine drives and McDonald’s. Three of my favorites on same day. I could not ask for more happiness because I had all I love.
|Chak De India song live performance|
|Akriti Kakar live|
Today I had last two supernumery sessions. This time it was in old simulator. My all previous sessions were booked in new simulator 3. Though it was new simulator, it has become very special for me. I got to fly it today. Capt. N P Singhal was very kind to offer me to operate lovely A320 in simulator. It was a amazing moment for me as I started to perform cockpit preparation, before start check list and so on.
It was time to advance thrust levers to flex for take off. 100 knots, V1, rotate and wow… I applied gentle back pressure on side-stick and she was airborne. Feeling of touching her was magnificent. She is a lovely flyer. She manages everything I just had to be gentle to her. Following FD was very new experience for me. Lovely guidance it gives and makes flight very easy to handle. Few minutes later I tried Track-FPA mode to fly her. And again she was very gentle in it. Captain kept giving me heading to fly and I follwed his instructions.
Now it was time for approach and land. He tuned for ILS RW 28 and gave me runway heading. Flying FD made me fly on profile. I was giving very gentle corrections to her. Runway was coming close and I was more focused on following FDs to keep me on profile. She gently touched down and I applied reversals. The way she responded to my orders made me fall for her.
While on approch Capt. N Singhal asked who is flying? Captain said “Sir, he(me) is flying”. Capt. N Singhal said, “arrey wah that’s nice. You are doing good”. His words gave me high boost. He also advised me to read SOPs and FCTM. What best thing is I made good first impression. I need to keep it up like this.
Right now I am travelling back to Mumbai. Its a overnight journey. I am very excited to see my new borne nephew. I haven’t told my parents about my home visit. I want to surprise them.
Today my sister gave birth to baby boy. This is very special moment for me. I was eagerly waiting for him. I used to see him moving inside his mothers womb. Deedee said he used to love playing football in her womb.
I am desperately waiting for my supernumery sessions to get over so that I can go home to see new born kid.. May god bless him with all power, immunity and intelegence. I love him
Hope is what made me to stay dedicated. It made me to take big desicions. I did multi-engine rating because I had a hope that Indigo or Air India will recruit. Doing multi was turning point of my life. I got into Air India as self sponsored trainee pilot. Now I have hope that Air India will induct me. Because of this I took big desicion of spending big money for A320 training.
My hopes and my dedication are flying simultaniously. All I want to stay motivated and stay focused
P.S. I did not tried to increase friendship with Divya. I don’t want to divert my mind from career. At this moment I just want to stay dedicated at my dream
One always has to know when a stage
comes to an end. If we insist on staying
longer than the necessary time, we lose
the happiness and the meaning of the
other stages we have to go through.
Closing cycles, shutting doors, ending
chapters – whatever name we give it, what
matters is to leave in the past the
moments of life that have finished.
Did you lose your job? Has a loving
relationship come to an end? Did you
leave your parents’ house? Gone to live
abroad? Has a long-lasting friendship
ended all of a sudden?
You can spend a long time wondering why
this has happened.
You can tell yourself you won’t take
another step until you find out why
certain things that were so important and
so solid in your life have turned into dust,
just like that.
But such an attitude will be awfully
stressing for everyone involved: your
parents, your husband or wife, your
friends, your children, your sister.
Everyone is finishing chapters, turning
over new leaves, getting on with life, and
they will all feel bad seeing you at a
Things pass, and the best we can do is to
let them really go away.
That is why it is so important (however
painful it may be!) to destroy souvenirs,
move, give lots of things away to
orphanages, sell or donate the books you
have at home.
Everything in this visible world is a
manifestation of the invisible world, of
what is going on in our hearts – and
getting rid of certain memories also
means making some room for other
memories to take their place.
Let things go. Release them. Detach
yourself from them.
Nobody plays this life with marked cards,
so sometimes we win and sometimes we
Do not expect anything in return, do not
expect your efforts to be appreciated,
your genius to be discovered, your love to
Stop turning on your emotional television
to watch the same program over and over
again, the one that shows how much you
suffered from a certain loss: that is only
poisoning you, nothing else.
Nothing is more dangerous than not
accepting love relationships that are
broken off, work that is promised but
there is no starting date, decisions that
are always put off waiting for the “ideal
Before a new chapter is begun, the old
one has to be finished: tell yourself that
what has passed will never come back.
Remember that there was a time when you
could live without that thing or that
person – nothing is irreplaceable, a habit
is not a need.
This may sound so obvious, it may even
be difficult, but it is very important.
Closing cycles. Not because of pride,
incapacity or arrogance, but simply
because that no longer fits your life.
Shut the door, change the record, clean
the house, shake off the dust.
Stop being who you were, and change into
who you are.
03 Dec 2013. Its a very special day for me. Today I went to Airbus A320 simullator for my first supernumery session. It was a breath-taking experience in brand new A320 simulator at CTE, Air India. It was a routine check for Capt. Abhishek Choudhary and Capt. Milind under supervision of Capt. A Pramanick.
My session was initially scheduled for 1600 hrs but it got rescheduled for 1905. I reached there 30 minutes before time. I had 3 glass of water and made myself relax. After few minutes I clicked photograph of simulator. This simulator 3 is so beautiful that I fell in love with it. Air India logo on simulator was making it look more beautiful.
That was a moment which is going to take me to new heights of commercial flight training. At 1900 I entered simulator with all 3 crews. Capt. Abhishek and Capt. Milind were doing pre flight procedures and Capt. A Pramanick was giving them instructions. I was observing Capt. Abhishek as he was filling data in flight computer through MCDU, Capt. Milind was setting parameters on FCU and Capt. A Pramanick was feeding data in simulator master computer. I was just staring at cockpit of lovely A320. It was a love at first flight. Overhead panel, padestal, Display Unit, side stick, throttle…every inch of this cockpit was looking smooth as silk and attractive like diamond.
Capt. Milind moved throttle to take-off power. I was staring like a child. Before I noticed anything it was engine failure before V1. Capt. Milind rejected take-off and stopped aircraft on runway. Engine failure command was given by Capt. A Pramanick in simulator master computer. This is a part of training. After resetting cockpit conditions we went ahead for new take off. V1, rotate and we were in air. Positive rate, gear up. Wow! Everything looked so magical. During climb engine 1 bleed fault occured. Both crew took corrective actions. But after couple of minute same fault occured along with low cabin pressurization. Crew decided to return back to base. While returning they encountered traffic on TCAS. While on approach both FCU failure occured. Capt. Milind was doing manual landing. Winds were slight cross and it was not easy to maintain flight on localiser. At minimums crew experienced unstabilized approach. Go around and we again went up to 6000 feet. At 6000 feet Capt. A Pramanick reset the faults and we were flying with all ops normal. Now it was time for blue + green hydraulic failure. OMG what concerntration is needed to fly an airliner. Landing with blue + green hydraulic failure was not easy.
Capt. A Pramanick was using his iPad to refer QRH and adviced crew about same. During session he asked me “when break hot indication warning goes off?” I did not answer. It was 290 degree celcius. I took down important notes during session as I used to do it during CPL training days.
I want to keep myself motivated during whole training. Its my dream and I can see my dream is coming true. Tomorrow I have second session of supernumery in simulator.
Think positive. Achieve goal
This is it. We all are into new year. I am celebrating new year in new city. Hyderabad. People in this city are going crazy tonight. Bikers are rocking city roads. Every one seems to be happy. And yeah I am happy too.
At new year countdown I was at my apartment near Masab Tank. It was like a normal night for me. Watching tv and switching over channels. It was a stupidest way of celebrating new year. At very next moment I decided to step out of the house and walk on the streets. I saw large number of youth cheering and celebrating the event. A walk at midnight and happy people around was a perfect start for my new year. I hired auto to reach HardRock cafe. Of course I went there to see drunk chicks. And I did see around half dozon chicks. I met few friends who just stepped out of HardRock. Cafe was close by now. I did not mind though.
Now I am walking back to my apartment. Bikers are doing stunts and guys are almost popping out of running car. I am walking alone and I am happy. I strongly belive that you don’t need company to stay happy.
I know this new year is going to be a most amazing year. To make it more amazing I have to work hard and win the battle. This year I will be A320 type rated pilot. My life is going to be changed. Getting trained in Air India was most outstanding thing happened to me in 2012. In 2013 I will prove myself as a good and safe pilot. My new year resolution are to stay happy, stay fit, start flying for living, eat healthy food and stay single. Well, I am quite not sure about staying single. I like one girl (I mentioned about her in recent post).
That day Divya did meet me at 9 o’clock. Today again I went to meet her. She was happy too see me. We talked for quite long duration. I won’t be getting much timeto see her once my simulator session starts. Now I have got nothing to do for few days. I will try to see her quite often.
This was best new year night for me so far. I hope we see a peaceful year ahead.
Life is good. Keep smiling
I am on the way to Hyderabad. My simulator training will resume in few days. Right now I am at Yavat which is a small town on Mumbai- Solapur highway. Its very cold out here. My palms are freezing.
I just had dinner. Mom packed me a tiffin. She cooked my favourite bhindi masala and roti. I had 3 and half roti and I am full. I am travelling by Sahara travells volvo bus. Bus is not quite comfortable. I am in very first row (I purposely booked in first row to get extra leg space). Pirated movies are being played on television inside bus. Sound is very loud and annoying. I have put headphone so that I get less irritation. Bus guy played Dabangg 2, Khiladi 786 and now Oh my god is on show. Video and sound is not synchronised at all. I wish I could have booked other travels. But I found this very cheap and had less travel duration.
Its 11:30 in night. I am planing sleep in rest of journey. I have a shawl on my seat. I hope it will be a good journey from here. I am having slight head-ache. I hope I will be ok once I sleep.
Today I was trying to wear contact lenses for first time. It took me more than an hour just to wear my first lense. But I could not wear second lense because I had to do packing for my travel. I removed lense and continued with spectacle.
I will reach hyderabad by tomorrow morning. I have a 7 day occomodation in Nabard guest house. In 7 days I need to find a good accomodation near CTE, Air India. I hope I will find a good stay and it will be a good time at Hyderabad.
P.S. I don’t have data connection in my phone. I will publish this post once I reach Hyderabad)
I was at Mumbai domestic airport with Ajinkya to meet his cousin Hira who is flying for Spicejet. We were already running behind time to see him. Before we reached, Hira had to resume his flight duty. I wish i could meet him. If we must have left home early, we could have meet him. Me and Ajinkya then decided to roam around airport, We were at arrival gate, staring at people coming out of airport. Watching people coming out of airport is not at all fun job. By this time i was very hungry. I did not have proper lunch yesterday. I wish i could have had good meal in afternoon. Before i left home, mom got some wada pav but i did not eat it because it has lot of calories. Me and Ajinkya were having very less money. I was having 40 rupees and Ajinkya was having around 50 rupee. It was very difficult to find cheap food near airport. There was a restaurant near-by but we could not afford it. Finally we found a cheap restaurant to eat. We had a bhel costing 20 rupee each and grabbed a Lays chips. now i was having only 6 rupees in my pocket. When you are hungry, you find any food look tasty. Same happened to me and Ajinkya.
While on return journey, my ex girlfriend called Ajinkya. And surprisingly she was at same railway station as we were. Ville Parle. Ajinkya is like brother to her. I told him to meet her, i will stay away. I told Ajinkya to not to tell her that i am with you. I saw her. She was looking pretty. She was smiling. I was staring at her. I don’t know why i still feel like taking care of her. But i don’t have feelings for her. I felt sad and lonely just because i saw her and i remembered old good days. No money in my pocket and watching my ex girlfriend made me more sad.
While watching her from behind the wall, i saw a young girl feeding biscuits to dogs near me. She was doing good job. Being a good guy, i asked her, “you do this everyday?” She arrogantly replied “No. only when i come to this place. Do you have any problem?” I stay calm. This is not my fault nor her fault. Its because present condition of women in India. Women don’t feel comfortable these days because of sexual harassment on female in India. I was just being friendly and she replied rude. This was a add on for sadness.
|very few passengers in train at night|
Ajinkya was insisting me to come to his house but i did not want to go. By the time i reached Seawoods station, i realized i have only 6 rupee with me and i require 10 rupee to get auto-rickshaw to home. But surprisingly i saw my neighbor near station and he gave me lift to my home. If i must have not meet him, i had to walk 1.5 km to home at 1 in night.
I reached home. Everyone was sleeping. I went to kitchen and had dinner. I was very calm while eating. I could feel the feeling of being home when you are hungry and have no money.
It was not a day to remember but it taught me many things. Emotions play with our mind. Keep emotions but don’t let it ruin your time.
Today I am in Rock Garden. Its a same place which I mentioned in my earlier posts. My home is 2.5k away from Rock Garden. I decided to talk down to this place. Another reason for walking such long distance is Runkeeper. This is a workout app in my phone and it tracks my activity whenever I run or walk.
|Laila, Imran, Arjun, Kabir|
While walk I was playing songs of Zindagi na milegi dobara in my headphone. I have seen znmd almost 15 time till today. This film is like inspiration for me. I really loved the character of Laila. She is full of life. She wants life to surprise her, meet new people,have good experiences. Her character really made positive impact on me. Listening to znmd song while walk was a good feeling. Poems in this film are extremely beautiful. Its really touches your soul.
|Rain Forest restaurant|
2 days ago Deepak told me he got increment stipend from hospital where he works. He invited me to celebrate it. We decided to visit Rain forest restaurant. But before having food, he bought 2 tin beer. It was KF strong. This was the first time we were drinking together. We both are occasional drinker. It was perfect occasion for us to get drunk. After cheers Deepak said “Hope it gets bigger and bigger”.
Restaurant was very beautiful. Its theme was rain forest. Food was tasty too. It was our first celebration and I too hope it gets bigger and bigger.
After dinner we went to Parsik hill to see how nerul looks at night. City looked very beautiful but visibility was poor.
Another surprise was when I was at Ajinkya’s house. It was her Maasi’s bday. She took us out for a dinner. We had lot of fish.
Today is cold evening. I am sitting inside a hut in Rock garden. I could feel cold breeze passing by my ears. I could hear cricket sound near me. Sun is setting down the horizon and aircraft is banking in the sky above me. Its a best time of day. My friend Swapnali will be here soon. I haven’t met her since 4 months. We had a small fight last time. Hope this time we don’t fight.
|So called Mumbai winter|
Its winter season in India. Well I don’t think so. Its freaking hot here in Mumbai. I know this part of India doesn’t get cold as rest of country but there has to be some sign of cold. Today afternoon I checked temperature on Google. It was 32 degree celcius in Mumbai. Humidity from Arabian sea is making Mumbai look like steam coocker. I won’t be wrong if I relate this with Global Warming.
Last time Mumbai airport was closed because of heavy fog was in 1989. Now a days whatever fog I see in Mumbai is not actually fog. Its smog. Pollution and dust is making Mumbai sky look like iDot. I don’t remember last time when I saw stars in Mumbai’s sky. Last night is was very hot inside my house. I was not able to sleep because of heat. Fan was on full mode but it was doing nothing but puking hot air.
If you go outside Mumbai, you will see sudden temperature decrease. Cold temperature makes me feel good and motivates me to do workout. But these days after running for 2 kilometer my whole body gets covered with sweat. Its irritating 😦
Today I will be staying at Ajinkya’s house. His parents are out of town. I am planning to cook at his house. Cooking is real fun. I love cooking when parents are not at my home. Last time when my parents were out I used to enjoy cooking. Bhakti used to help me. I remember we cooked Alu parathas. It was yumm with curd. Cooking is an art and I am struggling artist :p
I like to walk at night. Me and Ajinkya will be going for night walk. I hope it will be cool in Thane.
Happy winter. Huh
Today was a fantastic day. Me and Deepak went for a movie called Life of Pi. It has a story which makes you keep believe in god and it tells us that no matter what happens, you have to keep trying. 2 hours in cinema hall was very inspiring experience.
Here is promo of this film
After movie, we had lunch at street restaurant near Vashi railway station. Chinese food at that place tastes very good. Me and Deepak usually visit it when we are meeting at Vashi. After lunch we bought some books and decided to visit Parsik Hills. Here is a link of this place: [http://goo.gl/2p6pU ]
When we reached there sky was full of alto-cumulus clouds. Sun was hiding behind clouds. Visibility was very good. I could see airline logo on aircraft’s tail which were passing above us at 5000 feet. Sunset was nearing. Horizon had become orange colored. Whole sky was divided in color shades from orange to blue. In those shades white clouds were making that scene very magnificent.
Here is a photograph
|Sunset view at Parsik Hills|
An inspiring movie and after that a beautiful sunset. It was magical time. I am feeling very much motivated. But it was not end to this beautiful day. After sunset we headed to Rock garden in Nerul. It is big garden. I love to walk barefoot on grass. Touch of cold and green grass was making me feel very good. Me and Deepak were lying down, watching stars. In Mumbai we could not see clear stars due to pollution and dust. Watching stars while lying on grass was best feeling of the day. I was so relaxed. We talked about stars, universe, Buddhism, Alexander the great, King Asoka, Swami Vivekananda’s thoughts and many more.
By the time we finished talking, it was 8:30pm. It was time to head our homes. We thanked each other for this wonderful time.
I do believe that some days has magical touch. For me today was magical day which made me strong to believe in myself.
Few days ago I was in Nasik, I went to meet him. He was sitting in market. It was bright day. I was concerned not to get tanned. At same time he was doing stitches on shoes. I was standing away from him and I could not have courage to meet him. I am very happy in my life. I spend lot of money on unnecessory things. But he is fighting for living and that to in his very old age. After some time, I walked near to him. When he saw me, he was very happy. I could feel his wibes when he saw me. First thing he asked me what am I doing in life. I said I am under training in Air India. He felt nice to hear that. He said I am proud of you son. Keep it up. He asked about my parents. He stopped doing stitches when he was talking to me.
After talking for some time, he orderd tea for me. I could feel his caring nature. He is satisfied in what he is doing and what he is earning. He was not having more money but still he got me a cup of tea. He also asked me to eat something but I refused as I had breakfast few hours earlier. At that moment, I was very emotional. My eyes were wet. I was feeling sad for him. Whatever he must have done in his young ages, but he deserves care in his old age. He lost his job in police, his wife left him with two childrens. He is alone. I don’t know exact reason but old member of my family says he himself is responsible for his present condition. But whatever it is, I don’t care abut what he has done in past. I just care that he is my uncle and he loves me a lot.
One important thing he said to me. He said, ” now I have become old. My days are getting over. I will die soon. But before dying I want to see you getting married. I want to see you happy. I don’t know dance but I will drink half bottle and I will dance in your marriage. I am proud of you my son. Do come here to see me. You will find me at this same place”.
Few days back my cousin set up a house for him. That house is very small in size. But now he has got a shelter to sleep. He is a man who will work himself for food but will not ask for help. Self respect means a lot to him. I could see lot of similarity in nature between him and my father. This man did lot of hardwork in his young age and still he is doing it in old days.
I love him. I pray god for his health. I want to do something for him. I am waiting for job. Once I start earning, I will definitely try to make him feel good.